Thursday, 25 June 2015

Anxiety Is Driving Me Crazy.

As the title suggests, I'm gonna have a ramble about anxiety and what a pain in the butt it is.

It's lately that I've been really feeling it's affects. I'm getting constant headaches that seem to linger even when I take some medicine. I have been feeling itchy and agitated and I know it's anxiety which is the root of all these symptoms. I have been over-thinking. Uh Oh.

I am an over-thinker by nature so when something happens I naturally go into overdrive. I've had a lot to think about these last couple of weeks and my stress levels have dramatically increased so of course anxiety jumped up to match -an attention seeking little thing it is-.
I have been dealing with the whole diagnosis thing and how you go about that in relationships. Expect a whole other post on that subject...

Anxiety is something we have to have. It keeps us safe on a daily basis. Not quite to my extreme but I know it's a necessity. But I don't think people realise how difficult it is to live with when it begins to spiral.

I have had the usual "Stop worrying" "how is worrying going to help" and boy does it frustrate me.
If it were that easy, don't you think I would just stop? Morons.

It's becoming increasingly difficult for me to cope with my anxiety because there's always something to worry about. I will pick and pick until I find something and then I'll stew over that for weeks and weeks. I'm frustrated with myself.
I feel like I'm constantly on the verge of tears and that angers me. I don't want to have any anxiety. So if anyone wants to take it off my hands it'll be greatly appreciated. No takers??...There's a surprise.
I do often wish I could give a taste of my anxiety to those who either mock it or don't understand it. Wouldn't that be a shock for them to fully understand how much anxiety takes away and how much of the person it destroys.

This post is completely disjointed and scattered a bit like myself so I apologise for that.

Thanks for reading
Loubee Lou

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